Wrong Words

I am horrible with words sometimes. Sometimes, but not all the time. Most of the time I say the wrong thing when I fear something or I am insecure about something. Even writing this now is causing a little anxiety because it makes me feel vulnerable because of admitting my weaknesses. Fear and insecurity tend to drive my thoughts and words in the wrong direction. This is still an area in my life that I need to work on. I fear rejection and being hurt, but yet I seem to be the cause of that happening. Go figure. I then hate myself afterwards for saying things the way I did instead of saying what I really want to say. But what do you when there is a chance that what you really want to say may also lead to rejection or hurt? That is where I stay confused. Do I take the jump or do I simply wait? I think where I am the safest is to just say nothing at all! That is hard to do when there is so much inside that I want to say to someone. Waiting on something has never been a strong point of mine. I better learn quick because my impatience is causing me to lose people that are important to me. I know what I have to do to get over yet another obstacle and challenge for me. Look to God. My aunt posted to my Facebook status one of my favorite bible verses: Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. ~Proverbs 3:5-6  This is always a challenge to do as a human in this awful world. However, I am glad to know that He is in control and can get me through anything. I am glad to know that I don't have to try to fix me. He can make me who I need to be and who He wants me to be as long as I turn to HIM!